Lately I have been feeling a bit overwhelmed and unfocused, and I have no idea why. I have a lot going on in my life right now, but it is certainly not more than I can handle. (Not even close!) I have been going to school, doing homework, and of course since I still live at home, I help out a lot around the house. I know I am an adult and living on my own would come with wayyyyy more responsibility, but sometimes I feel like I am worried about more than I should be around here.
I need to figure out a way to refocus and get back on track. I find that my mind begins to wander and I start a bunch of tasks without finishing others, and then everything becomes disorganized. Don't get me wrong, all of the tasks I start DO get finished, but it just needs to happen in a more organized fashion without all of the chaos.
I think I start to get bored when I begin something and that I would be better off doing something else that needs to get done. Well, I just end up with a bunch of started projects and have to figure out where I left off so I can finish what I started. In turn, I'm pretty sure since my mind is everywhere I am actually making more work for myself in the long run.
Sorry, this was short but sweet, and I think this post kind of proves my point. I had to take a break from doing some research for a final project because I was getting bored.
Why can't I just stay focused?!
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Just a Friend...
Okay. I don't know if this IS just because I'm single and getting older, but I have to get something off of my chest.
I have got to talk about those close friends you have that get in a serious, committed relationship and then fall off of the face of the earth. What is up with that?
I understand that some people want to settle down with their significant other, and perhaps, start planning a future for a family and what not. But why do they completely eliminate their social lives? Whatever.
Then there are people who grow apart from their friends because their friends don't like the person they are dating and end up having conflict because of it. Not everyone can get along. Fine.
The one that really gets to me, is when significant others tell you that you can't be friends with, or hang out with certain people. I mean, what the hell is that?! I'd be damned if someone told me who I could and could not be friends with.
It comes as no surprise to me that their new boyfriend or girlfriend may be a little bit jealous or insecure about what you and your ex may have shared in the past. So then they ask you to stop speaking with them because of their own insecurities and the thoughts constantly running through their mind. So in some cases, this request results in a huge fight and/or the relationship ending. Oh well, then I guess that relationship wasn't meant to be.
On the other hand, they may agree that they should not be friends with their ex, and respect their new boyfriend/girlfriend's wishes to end the friendship.
Well, what about the ones who "respect" their wishes, and then turn around and try to continue having a "secret friendship" with the person they aren't supposed to talk to? Of course, I bring this up because this has happened.
An ex of mine had contacted me and wanted to catch up. I saw no problem with this as we had known each other for 9 years and dated for an insignificant amount of time. As we began to share how we've been and what we were up to, he made a comment during the conversation stating that nobody could know that we were talking, including my friends.
UMMMMM. EFF THAT. I'm sorry, but I think that is just ridiculous. If you want to contact someone and then hide it from your significant other because it would clearly upset them, I find that inappropriate.
Sometimes people just get busy and have a lot going on in their lives so they lose contact, but that's not what I'm talking about. That shit happens and people find their way back.
I understand that some people want to settle down with their significant other, and perhaps, start planning a future for a family and what not. But why do they completely eliminate their social lives? Whatever.
Then there are people who grow apart from their friends because their friends don't like the person they are dating and end up having conflict because of it. Not everyone can get along. Fine.
The one that really gets to me, is when significant others tell you that you can't be friends with, or hang out with certain people. I mean, what the hell is that?! I'd be damned if someone told me who I could and could not be friends with.
This leads me to another scenario: Is it inappropriate for exes to be friends after their relationship has ended?
It comes as no surprise to me that their new boyfriend or girlfriend may be a little bit jealous or insecure about what you and your ex may have shared in the past. So then they ask you to stop speaking with them because of their own insecurities and the thoughts constantly running through their mind. So in some cases, this request results in a huge fight and/or the relationship ending. Oh well, then I guess that relationship wasn't meant to be.
On the other hand, they may agree that they should not be friends with their ex, and respect their new boyfriend/girlfriend's wishes to end the friendship.
Well, what about the ones who "respect" their wishes, and then turn around and try to continue having a "secret friendship" with the person they aren't supposed to talk to? Of course, I bring this up because this has happened.
An ex of mine had contacted me and wanted to catch up. I saw no problem with this as we had known each other for 9 years and dated for an insignificant amount of time. As we began to share how we've been and what we were up to, he made a comment during the conversation stating that nobody could know that we were talking, including my friends.
UMMMMM. EFF THAT. I'm sorry, but I think that is just ridiculous. If you want to contact someone and then hide it from your significant other because it would clearly upset them, I find that inappropriate.
If you have to hide it, are you implying that you're doing something wrong?
Right then and there I wanted the conversation to be over. It has been nice to have no drama in my life whatsoever, and I didn't want to start. By continuing to speak to him, I got a feeling that it would somehow end up blowing up in my face, although there would be no skin off of my back. He would be the one in hot water, not me.
We had not spoke in over a year and I was completely okay with that. I am still okay with that. Why did he find it so important to get in contact with me again? Who knows. I just find people's actions to be inexplicable at times. Is it worth the risk to sneak around and contact old friends and exes at the expense of your relationship? Shouldn't you just be honest and be friends with who you want to be friends with, or should you have to pay a price?
Just a Friend - Biz Markie
Monday, July 4, 2011
Roll With It...
I was sitting here today with nothing better to do when I realized that I have a blog I have not written on in f-o-r-e-v-e-r! My apologies. So I logged in and noticed that I had only had one post in 2011! How shameful.
During these past 6 or so months I needed to buckle down and focus on just a few things. One of my worst habits is biting off more than I can chew and getting myself caught in sticky ass situations. I just turned 25 a week ago - I've really got to get my shit together righttt?!
As you can see in my one and only post prior to this in 2011, there were some things that changed in my life (for the better) indeed. I guess at this point it would be best to recap a few main details for 2011 so that my future posts will make sense as a begin to write again.
1. School is still on the list
Surprisingly, I took it upon myself to enroll in summer classes so I could keep the ball rolling and get done sooner. I find it much harder to keep my focus on my work during the summer months. This semester comes to a close in about 5 weeks and LET ME TELL YOU...I am ready for the break!! I am still happy about my classes and knowing exactly what direction I want my academic life to go in, but damn...everyone needs a break at some point. So in 5 weeks, I will be able to enjoy the rest of the summer and get my head focused for the fall.
I feel like I don't want to spend as much time ranting and raving about school, so even though it consumes so much of my time, I am going to try and keep the school chat to a minimum on here! Okay great. NEXT!
2. I am still single (and still happy.)
Yes. Exactly what the title says. I am still single. I am still happy. There are those moments when I think to myself, "wow, it would be nice to have someone to cuddle up with or share those little mushy moments with..." and then after seeing some of the bullshit and stress that many of my friends deal in a serious relationship I think, "Damn I am soooo happy I am not as miserable and tied down as they are..." Is it wrong that I see it that way? They may not be tied down, but sometimes it most certainly seems like it! Why be with someone that you spend more of your time arguing with than enjoying?! I'd rather be single than be stressed out by my significant other. Damn straight.
Oh, and, let's not forget about those ever-so-wonderful, "What are we? 'situations'." WOOF. Been there, done that, and call me a bitch, but I don't even want to hear about those types of situations because nobody ever listens to the advice they're given anyway. Trust me, I know.
Now that does not mean that I am ruling any possibilities out. It also does not mean that I am not currently thinking of someone right this instant. He is a great guy and does not steer people wrong. He is completely honest and works very hard. I find it extremely easy to talk to him and relate to him on many different levels. But there aren't really too many other details - yet. Getting to know more about each other is very casual, so I'm not really digging deep and thinking too much about what the future holds. Besides - I think doing the "me" thing right now is still working out.
A few other things...
I screwed up my ankle. Yep. I have had to wear an immobilizer boot up to my knee for the past few weeks now. My doctor seems to think that is it making my ankle worse, so I am waiting to get a new brace and then I am going to have to walk around on crutches. UGH. Not again!
I guess in English what my doctors told me is that my joint bones are starting to fuse together (again) and since they are rubbing together, it is causing cartilage and fluid to build up. You should feel it - its pretty gross. I'll keep you posted on those details as I am waiting for my upcoming orthopedic appointment.
Kind of random, but does anyone know of ways to keep in shape since I can't run or do any workouts involving my ankle?
I'm trying to quit smoking. Yep. The girl who always said she loved to smoke is trying to quit. I figured, why the hell not? Originally, I was only going to quit for a week or two (if I could stand it) to prove to a friend that she doesn't need electric cigarettes, patches, gum, and blah, blah, blah to quit smoking. Well long story short, I quit cold turkey, and she didn't quit at all.
Now, this is in the early stages. Today will be the end of day 9 and I haven't caved yet. On day 3, I had a major meltdown and was in tears struggling with the idea of never having a cigarette again. Two things I was concerned about was wanting to smoke while I drink coffee and alcohol. Since I quit, I have done both, and so far, so good. We'll see what happens, but at this point I think I am at ease with my decision and shouldn't have a problem keeping on this path.
Anyway, I think this post is long enough. I am glad I'm back to blogging now as it felt really good to write this all down...I'll be back, and I swear I won't wait until 2012 :-)
Roll With It - Oasis
During these past 6 or so months I needed to buckle down and focus on just a few things. One of my worst habits is biting off more than I can chew and getting myself caught in sticky ass situations. I just turned 25 a week ago - I've really got to get my shit together righttt?!
As you can see in my one and only post prior to this in 2011, there were some things that changed in my life (for the better) indeed. I guess at this point it would be best to recap a few main details for 2011 so that my future posts will make sense as a begin to write again.
1. School is still on the list
Surprisingly, I took it upon myself to enroll in summer classes so I could keep the ball rolling and get done sooner. I find it much harder to keep my focus on my work during the summer months. This semester comes to a close in about 5 weeks and LET ME TELL YOU...I am ready for the break!! I am still happy about my classes and knowing exactly what direction I want my academic life to go in, but damn...everyone needs a break at some point. So in 5 weeks, I will be able to enjoy the rest of the summer and get my head focused for the fall.
I feel like I don't want to spend as much time ranting and raving about school, so even though it consumes so much of my time, I am going to try and keep the school chat to a minimum on here! Okay great. NEXT!
2. I am still single (and still happy.)
Yes. Exactly what the title says. I am still single. I am still happy. There are those moments when I think to myself, "wow, it would be nice to have someone to cuddle up with or share those little mushy moments with..." and then after seeing some of the bullshit and stress that many of my friends deal in a serious relationship I think, "Damn I am soooo happy I am not as miserable and tied down as they are..." Is it wrong that I see it that way? They may not be tied down, but sometimes it most certainly seems like it! Why be with someone that you spend more of your time arguing with than enjoying?! I'd rather be single than be stressed out by my significant other. Damn straight.
Oh, and, let's not forget about those ever-so-wonderful, "What are we? 'situations'." WOOF. Been there, done that, and call me a bitch, but I don't even want to hear about those types of situations because nobody ever listens to the advice they're given anyway. Trust me, I know.
Now that does not mean that I am ruling any possibilities out. It also does not mean that I am not currently thinking of someone right this instant. He is a great guy and does not steer people wrong. He is completely honest and works very hard. I find it extremely easy to talk to him and relate to him on many different levels. But there aren't really too many other details - yet. Getting to know more about each other is very casual, so I'm not really digging deep and thinking too much about what the future holds. Besides - I think doing the "me" thing right now is still working out.
A few other things...
I screwed up my ankle. Yep. I have had to wear an immobilizer boot up to my knee for the past few weeks now. My doctor seems to think that is it making my ankle worse, so I am waiting to get a new brace and then I am going to have to walk around on crutches. UGH. Not again!
I guess in English what my doctors told me is that my joint bones are starting to fuse together (again) and since they are rubbing together, it is causing cartilage and fluid to build up. You should feel it - its pretty gross. I'll keep you posted on those details as I am waiting for my upcoming orthopedic appointment.
Kind of random, but does anyone know of ways to keep in shape since I can't run or do any workouts involving my ankle?
I'm trying to quit smoking. Yep. The girl who always said she loved to smoke is trying to quit. I figured, why the hell not? Originally, I was only going to quit for a week or two (if I could stand it) to prove to a friend that she doesn't need electric cigarettes, patches, gum, and blah, blah, blah to quit smoking. Well long story short, I quit cold turkey, and she didn't quit at all.
Now, this is in the early stages. Today will be the end of day 9 and I haven't caved yet. On day 3, I had a major meltdown and was in tears struggling with the idea of never having a cigarette again. Two things I was concerned about was wanting to smoke while I drink coffee and alcohol. Since I quit, I have done both, and so far, so good. We'll see what happens, but at this point I think I am at ease with my decision and shouldn't have a problem keeping on this path.
Anyway, I think this post is long enough. I am glad I'm back to blogging now as it felt really good to write this all down...I'll be back, and I swear I won't wait until 2012 :-)
Roll With It - Oasis
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