Cigarettes

Okay, so I haven't exactly quit smoking like I thought i was going to, although I've made a large improvement in my smoking habits. I've cut down from smoking a pack a day (at minimum) to 0-5 cigarettes a day. It is really easy for me to go an entire day without smoking, but whenever I drink, I get the "I don't care and I'm going to do whatever the hell I want" attitude. Bad move big time. I feel like crap the next day now and my lungs feel like they're on fire despite cutting down. (If that makes any sense.) I am starting to question how I ever smoked a pack a day when it makes me feel this gross!!

Has anyone else ever felt this way?!

As long as I am not thinking about it, I have no problems. Now as I sit here and type about NOT smoking, it only makes me want to go outside and light a cigarette. I guess it doesn't help either that I happen to constantly have a pack of cigarettes at my disposal at any given time. Maybe if I'm as serious as I think I am about this, I should start to put in a little more effort to actually kick the habit. I don't want this to be the 2353462562 time I've tried to quit, only to fail again.

Every time I've attempted to quit and I fail, my habit ultimately kicks back into full gear again and usually ends up much worse!! I'm not going to let this happen. I don't want to let myself down, and I want to live a healthier lifestyle. If there's one thing I know for sure, there is going to be NO ROOM for failure in 2010.

Cigarettes - Fort Minor

Dazed and Confused

Everytime I think I figure this thing out, I get more confused....it shouldn't be THAT difficult RIGHT?!

Dazed and Confused - Led Zeppelin

Good Times Bad Times

You know, I wasn't really sure what to say on this. My best friend started a blog recently, so I figured I would do the same since I like to write and because her and I don't always get a chance to talk everyday. I've also decided that all of my blog titles will (of course) be song titles, that I'll reference at the bottom of my blogs.

It's been 5 days into the New Year so far, and of course just like every year, I feel like I have really high expectations for whatever may be in store. Most of all, I just want to become a happier person again. I'm going to have to take some risks and make some big changes that people may not necessarily like, but it's time to start taking care of me.